The Daily Grind

I used to have this classmate in grade school until first year high named Allen. He was a big bully! We had this love-hate relationship ever since we saw each other on the school grounds.

I remember we used to fight a lot. Normal quarreling between kids. And then come school dismissal, he would tell his dad about me and his dad would invite me over to play with him. I always said yes. Then in freshman high, we had this huge fight where I punched him a couple of times with a ballpen. It was not a proud moment for me but one where I felt justified because he teased me mercilessly and called me a bad name. I remember it clearly that when we went to the guidance counselor’s office, his dad was already there. He scolded his son for fighting with me, the same he always did when we were still kids. I was ashamed of what I did. His dad, instead of being angry with me, said sorry for what his son did.

I saw Allen after college graduation. He was taller, thinner, and a family man already. He was the one who saw me first and greeted me. It was like seeing an old friend and we talked for a while. He probably still remembers the silliness that we were back then. But it was with a smile now whenever we remember it for sure.

One of my online friends moved to a new home. She is documenting the different phases of their move. From open house viewing to the neighbor-welcoming dinner, it is all documented in her Facebook account.

I have something to say about it… I am happy for her and envious at the same time! I already loved her old place. It may be small but I love how cozy it was. And it’s within a vicinity full of places to eat! When I saw her new place via the photos she posted in her account, I also fell in love with it right away! The wide windows and the high ceiling. The natural light coming in the house via the glass windows and doors. The spacious rooms…

I am envious because I want the same thing for me and my family. A new house with enough rooms for everyone.

I am looking for a new desk for my home office. Possibly like the photo above. It must be a space saver. It must have enough room for a desktop and a laptop plus some knick-knacks. It has to have a place for the CPU tower and a new printer.

I easily get sick of things around me. The computer tower I am using is still in very good condition. But I don’t know if you can understand this feeling of wanting to get rid of it and use a new one, possibly something entirely different. I am not happy with the desk anymore and the angle of it in my corner. I want something new!

I just wish the desk I can find is something I can afford.

This big city girl might be heading up to the mountains this summer. I need a time away from too much noise. Whereas before I don’t mind it, now I hate noise. I can tolerate loud sounds, sure. But if it was senseless and unnecessary…

I think a couple of days up the mountains will do wonders for my clogged mind. The clean, fresh air will give me the boost I need.

It has become a must for me. Starting tomorrow, I need peace and quiet so I can start writing more. I have to do it to tide me over until I become successful in my project.

It’s so hard not having a room of my own. I share a bedroom with my sisters. My home-office is located at the living room corner. Can you imagine the amount of privacy I have? Nada! It would have been okay but like right now, I need it and I can’t find it. I don’t know if I can totally concentrate at my corner but I will try my best.

Let this be the year you release your fears about what you can achieve.
- Oprah

I have set my goals and I am bent on achieving all of it. ALL! This is the year for me to become an achiever. I am done being the passive type of person who just lets everything pass her by.

This year, this big city girl I will be more active in life.

I swear it!

This big city girl will be very busy today and for the rest of the week. I have a lot on my plate at the moment. Work, family reunions, weddings, and preparing for my friend’s imminent departure.

These are the days when I kept wishing I have more than 24 hours in a day!

I found this photo of a lovely foyer in an Italian mansion. There are houses Italian in style at a nearby subdivision. I don’t like all the designs but I do love the feel of the houses. It’s so old, elegant and rich in culture.

I am not an architect or an engineer. I don’t know the different architectural designs or the technicalities of looking at a structure. But I do know how to appreciate a beautiful architecture or simply a house. I do love looking at beautiful houses. I would often ask the cab driver to slow down a bit when passing rows of beautiful houses because I commit the design to mind.

You know, if and when I have enough money already to have a house built for me and the family…

I hate when I get angry. I really lose my shiz when I do. I get so mad and I would say things I normally wouldn’t say to the person. All because I get really so bummed up when I am angry.

And then I’d feel bad after.

I normally get angry real fast when I am nagged about something. If I say wait, let me and I will do things my way. Don’t nag me about doing things fast. I hate that! If I also say that I don’t want to be bothered, don’t. Or you’d end up with blistered ears! I really don’t like people around me nagging, whining, and bothersome.

We’re cool if you let me do my thing and then wait for me to acknowledge you.

I just got angry and now my head is aching real bad. I hate it!

If you have been reading this blog, you know that I am a big city girl. But this big city girl is also longing for some time away from the city. There are days when I feel like going somewhere, away from the hustle and bustle of city life. Like the place in the photo. I want to be in a house with a veranda overlooking the sea. That would be really cool! Or a house near the beach where you can go out and walk on the sand.

Wishful thinking for now as I don’t have the budget to go outside the city.