Missing the countryside again. Every few weeks, I feel the need for some fresh air. For the past week or so, heavy rains poured down the whole country. I know that the grass is greener now in the countryside. There are dews on those leaves and grass. And everything is cleaner than before.

If only I can take off at a moment’s notice and to hell with tomorrow, I’d be off to the countryside now.

Will be meeting friends at a coffee shop for lunch. And will be spending all that time catching up on their lives and some good old gossiping.

What’s your plan for the weekend?

Have a nice one! Enjoy!

Being an accountant has it’s disadvantages. Especially when your family volunteers your services to relatives and friends. In my situation, instead of resting during my off days, I am doing pro bono consultancy for some of our relatives. Either they would call me up or come over for a visit. And of course, it would take hours to explain things to them, consult a colleague if the problem is not my area and so on. My rest day becomes a work day when all I spew about is accounting.

I am not complaining, hey. It’s just that there are days when I am really, really tired and would want to catch up on sleep.

I am totally amazed at how some people can live without the amenities that city life can give. Like electricity, filtered water, the buzz of the streets… the noise I can live without. But the bright lights and the vibe… I think that’s something I couldn’t live without. I kept asking my relatives how they can live like that and they said that it’s getting used to and adapting to your environment. I think I can if I don’t have a choice.

But being the city girl that I am, I will probably find my way back to the city way of life.

I am so darn sleepy! When you live in the city, it is but normal to be stay up really late. I used to do this but change my routine to accommodate my new schedule. My daily routine is to go to sleep between 9-10 in the evening and wake up at midnight or around 1AM. And then I stay awake until 7 or 8 in the morning and would go back to sleep afterwards.

It is hard to be keeping this sked but I’ve no choice since I have a set of things to do at designated times. I just hope that my body can sustain this kind of setup. So far, I am thriving on the schedule I’ve set for myself. Although I have become more sleepy now more than ever.

I am not feeling well again. It seems that my unhealthy lifestyle is taking its toll on me. I feel weak and feverish. I feel like I would just like to lie down and sleep.

And you know what? I am giving in to this urge. I will get a few more hours of sleep and will see if I can bounce back. I have a lot of things to do and I need to be back to my normal self within the day.

To tell you the truth, I am a city girl at heart. Yes, I love the country. But I don’t think I can live for a month straight with little activity or low electricity and all that. I love the hustle and bustle of the city. I love the sounds and the lights. It would have been better without the pollution, I know. Still, city life is the one for me. I know it.

You know how most people don’t like the sound of cars? I love the sound of it! Especially the sound of cars driving pass the house at night. I love the sound of traffic. I love the sound of people going about their business. It’s music to my ears. You probably find it weird but it’s me!

But I would love to have a farm somewhere. For my dad. For family gatherings. To be a sanctuary should the city life becomes too much.

Though, I believe, that no matter what, I will forever be a city girl at heart.

Sometimes you ask yourself if there is still meaning and reason to what you are doing. I have been asking that myself for weeks now. There is a hovering dark clouds over me for the same number of days now. Too many things running in my mind. Too many things to consider before I make a final decision. But I am seeing where this is going. Somehow, I know that it will come to it. Soon.

Photo Credit: Thank you, FinerCafe!

Recently, I was besieged by an overwhelming longing for something I cannot put my finger on. I don’t even know if I am actually longing for that someone who put money over a relationship I thought would last until death do us part. I was restless. If a good book and a strong tea cannot heal it, I do not know what.

I went on the road, looking for it. No, I did not find what was ailing me. But I found something else…

The best remedy for those who are afraid, lonely or unhappy is to go outside, somewhere where they can be quiet, alone with the heavens, nature and God. Because only then does one feel that all is as it should be and that God wishes to see people happy, amidst the simple beauty of nature.

Happiness in little things. The breeze from the open window of the car. Don’t you just find it relaxing to feel that cool breeze on your face? A baby’s smile is one of them. A car stopped beside mine and the baby smiled widely, reaching out her hand. It made my breath stop. That is God’s wonder, staring me right in the eye.

Little things matter. We just ignore it most of the time. Try to look at things you normally just pass by. It will make you happy, even in an odd sort of way.

Believe me.